I don't really have any enemies. There are people I don't willingly associate with because we have bad chemistry or bad history, but I mean, I've had my fair share of enemies in the past that it's actually very pointless to even have any now.
I tried teaching the difference between protagonist and antagonist to Matheson because he always plays "Pretend" and assumes the role of both the good and bad guys depending on where his creative mind takes him. He tends to assume that HE's the enemy because he's the bad guy, but I told him that if we're focusing on him - although he may not be the hero, he's not "the enemy" either.
For anyone out there that missed out on the high school English lesson, the protagonist isn't the good guy. It's the main character - good or evil. So whichever opposing force the main character stands against, well that's the antagonist - the main character's enemy.
Anyway, this got into a funny debate because by my son's logic, if you're evil you're the enemy, and I told him that in most cases, it's true because in most cases, the main character is the good guy. But then I told him that everyone is the main character in their own head and whether or not they're evil, who ever stands against them is their enemy no matter what side of the cause they're on.
It took him a while to get it, but he finally did.
Obviously, it wasn't just about that, because if it was, then this wouldn't be a blog post, it would be a Facebook status.
I like to use the little life lessons I impart with my son as a way of enhancing myself and who I am as a person. It's a lot easier to see the character you want to be when you wish the same of your children. Of course, we can run by the notion that I shouldn't have expectations for my son because I should be teaching him about "loving yourself for who you are", but let me just add in the fact that if children were meant to "just be themselves" without living up to certain parental expectations then there would be no necessity for parental guidance. Then in that case, parents would only be around solely for protective measures and providing adequate nourishment until said child is old enough to fend for his or herself. Nope. Sorry, that's not how it works in my house. I set realistic expectations (keyword: realistic) for my son to help him become a better person and those expectations I set for him are the same expectations I set for myself.
Let me also add, that as a parent, it is entirely up to you to determine what being a "better" person means. Sometimes when parents have these different views of what's "better" they often clash socially. Whether or not we can categorize any of these views as being "right" or "wrong", we know with certainty that when their views are radically different from each other, there will always be constant opposition. The key is firmly believing in what YOU believe to be right because your loyalty to your convictions is just one of those things that, well, makes you a better person.
Back to the main point because I went off track again, I teach my son principles and virtues and I expect him to follow them. I expect certain behaviours from him and at this age, I do expect a level of propriety from him as well, but nothing so extreme, I mean the kid's four.
So I taught him about enemies and allocating hate.
Enemies aren't always bad people. But you always have to remember, if someone is your enemy, you can bet your ass that you're their enemy too.
And are you always necessarily bad? No, not always, but in some cases, you may or may not have done a bad thing to create an enemy for yourself and that's where these life lessons come into play. I like to teach my son that there is always more than one side to things and if someone else is mad at me, then maybe I should look at what I did to figure out why before pointing the blame at them in retaliation.
I told Matheson that when we get older and our lives start to change, we're going to fight and we're going to argue, and things may get ugly, but I don't want to make an enemy out of him and I don't want him to make an enemy out of me.
Then I told him I don't have any enemies.
There are people in this world that I don't see eye to eye with. There are many that I don't agree with and my views differ from theirs. But I don't let those things turn into hostilities and hatreds because that's silly. The only people that truly deserve my hate in this world are radical extremists and Susan Fennell. But because I typically don't associate with any of the aforementioned, I don't hate anyone. I don't hold grudges over old faults and sour exchanges with people who have been a part of my life on a personal basis.
Why? I don't find much logic in burned bridges because if we're going to use that as an example, then let me make it clear that there will always be a boat, a plane, or a rope swing to get to the other side IF you want to.
What if we choose not to? That's fine, but leave the ashes alone.
The only thing I don't understand is that people linger on the hate involved in burning a bridge to begin with. The way I see it, if a bridge is burned, you should never revisit the ashes just to linger on harboured hatred. There are only two reasons you should ever return to the site of a burned down bridge.
1. To pay your respect and reminisce on the good things about being able to cross over to the other side.
2. You're determined to rebuild it or find another means of making it across.
End of story.
For those of you who revisit burned bridges without planning to make that trip for either of those two purposes, then stop. You're hurting yourself, it's not healthy, you're better off pretending the other side of the bridge didn't exist to begin with. I mentioned this before in a previous post, but even after you burn a bridge, you should always do your best to wish them well on the other side no matter how hard it may be to wish well upon those who may wish ill upon you.
I'm the furthest from perfect, but I can't wish ill upon people who so happened to get on my bad side at a point in my past. Odds are likely, if things got that bad to begin with, then they could probably use more luck than I do. So with that, I can only wish them the best because they need it.
After explaining that, I told Matheson not to make enemies. If they make an enemy out of him, then that's fine. Let it be.
You will argue and dispute over a number of things and though your arguments may range from subtle disagreements to views against which you strongly oppose, never become hostile and never harbour hatred over such silly things.
I tend to say that I hate a lot of things as a point of expression, but I really don't hate anything except - as I mentioned before, radical extremists and Susan Fennell.
As you grow older, you go through life and you get hurt and pushed around a few times. Sometimes its hard to get up, but for me, it's from those instances and the recovery thereafter that trigger the realization that I have no reason to have enemies. I like to argue and debate, but I don't fancy fighting. I don't fancy drama, and least of all, I don't have the energy to hate anyone. I think the only person in the world that has affected me in such a way to deserve my hate would be my son's father and even then, despite the disappointment, there is no hostility or hatred, I honestly just wish he get's better and something in him inspires change to be a better person because whether or not he deserves it, I know my son does.
So finally, I told Matheson, that in this world, there is only one true reason to hate someone and it's because they affected the way you loved someone else. Though even then, no one is worth your hate, not now, not ever - unless it is Susan Fennell.
Hate is such a powerful emotion and requires so much stress and energy that in order to truly hate someone, you inspire your own personal evil.
This is where you ruffle your kid's hair and tell them you love them and if they treat the world well then the world will treat you well.
It's one of those weird things I learned from my boyfriend, but it's one of the things that changed the way I lived my life. Well as far as I'm concerned, enemies - past, present and future - are part of the world we share and although I may owe them nothing, I still impart with them my good will and wishes for good fortune because even though I get nothing in return, it's better to teach my son to be generous with his happiness than it is to teach him to deter it with hate.